K ~ so the other morning I woke up an hour before my alarm was due to go off. Like most people I love my sleep and after struggling to fall asleep the night before ~ I was counting how many hours of sleep I had in my head. Frustrated, I flip to my other side to try and get comfortable again hoping to fall back asleep. As I do I am caught wide eyed at the view out of my bedroom window. The sun is rising and through the trees I am struck by a blast of glorious colors. Without a thought, my once frustrated sleepy self is standing on my front porch, in my pajamas, with my camera to my eye trying to capture the wonderous view that glows before me. I take my fill of shots and then I just stand there sinking into awe as the colors of the new sky wash through me ~ so peaceful and powerful. After a few minutes of basking in this beautiful light show I am slowly but surely brought back to the reality that my feet are frozen and I retreat inside for some warmth. I go to my picture window and continue my dreamy gaze until a thought pops in my head.... "what the heck just happened ? lol "
Slowly but surely the awareness of the previous couple days began to sink in. I had been in limbo. My mind was driving and it had pulled me off the road and I was stuck in a ditch. Overthinking, running the same script over and over again in my head. Like a skipping record. I was numbing myself, with bad food, games on my phone and menial tasks. My focus was gone and sleep was not happening. I know from previous experience what happened here and I reach back like 'Blues Clues' to find the moment of impact and I discover the culprit. I had been hit with a wave of emotion and the result was overwhelming. I recognize that when this happens I am blocking the emotion from expressing itself and it kinda just takes up residence inside me unresolved. So, I reach for my pen and journal and I begin to excavate (ask myself questions) and slowly but surely I begin to see it, feel it, express it and gain some understanding of it. The understanding that is unearthed is always a relief......it is a gift!
So speaking of gifts..... I look back at the sunrise that popped me out of bed. Once again Nature calling me~ like a billboard ~ doing it's song and dance to get my attention and inspire me out of my deep dreary slumber. Yelling at me to get up! It reminds me that there is always a solution and that, that solution will help you to Rise and Shine! I am so thankful to the Sunrise.
~ Colleen
Comments